its just in my personality to be a worrier. i don't like it, but its just what i do. the thing is, i only worry and stress over realistic things. i could care less about zombies or aliens or whatever. abnormal things, not really a concern.
i worry primarily over finances and the health and safety of my family.
that is my biggest concern with serving a mission....
my daddy hurts all the time and i dont know how much longer he'll be able to work. my mom only has a part time job. missions are expensive! and while i'm paying half of it... i really don't want to cause financial stress and be a burden on my family. i feel like its selfish of me, even though i know its for a good cause.
i also worry about being seperated from them in this time of unease in the world. what if a huge war breaks out? what if i'm in a country all the way across the world with no hope of getting home? what if something tragic happens in my family? that would kill me.
so i guess i have to do my best to trust in the lord.
these last few days have been a little rough. its like satan is doing all that he can to make me fearful and feel inadequate. i had a breakdown the other night, and thankfully my mom was there to help me through it. she really helped me to see that faith is key.
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